I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”

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Praise the Lord, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the Lord, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
The Lord works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.
He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
The Lord is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children,
so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;
for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
But from everlasting to everlasting
the Lord’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.
The Lord has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.
Praise the Lord, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
Praise the Lord, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
Praise the Lord, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the Lord, my soul.

~Psalm 103

The Way He Speaks

Last week I met a man in his late 70’s who I have no doubt God placed in the exam chair that day just for my benefit. I don’t remember how it came up, but he told me, and I quote: “You are the only one with the talents that you have, the experiences you have, God only made one of you, and He made you with a purpose! He’s got big plans for you, I can tell. You just wait! It’s going to be bigger than you could ever have imagined!” I almost cried. It was exactly what I needed to hear.

He also said “You must have a boyfriend, yes?” to which I said no, and he said “Oh, well I saw the ring on your necklace.” I explained that it was my mother’s ring and that she had recently passed away, and he asked how Dad and I were handling it, so I told him we were doing okay, and we knew we would see her again. He beamed, such youth in those eyes, though greyed with cataracts, a joy in them so refreshing. “That you will, darling. She’s proud of you. I’m sure of it. And you’ll find your man eventually don’t you worry! *wink*”

God is amazing the way He brings people like that across my path. There have been several.

Whatever this plan is that God’s got in the works, He obviously wants me to know that it’s big, and I’ll love it. Looking forward to finding out what it is. ^_^

~TQG

Home Sick

No, not sick for home, or sick of home, but literally sent home from work because I’m sick. Can’t be sneezing and sniffling when you’re supposed to be examining peoples eyes.

Not happy about missing 7 of my 8 hours, but it’s a welcome break all the same. Hopefully by tomorrow I’ll be feeling well, and not miss a second day.

It’s been a good thing though… I spent some time reading James, journaling, and dealing with some things I’ve had on my heart. I had a sudden paradigm shift this afternoon as I wrote in my prayer journal. For years, whenever I’ve struggled with something, I’ve prayed for God to removed the obstacle, or to give me the strength to overcome it. I’ll be very honest, when praying this way, I’ve never really had much success. Today as I sat there trying to understand why, I realized I’ve had the wrong motives. I could have just as easily said “God, make my life easy so I don’t have to struggle”, or “God, make me strong so I can figure things out on my own”. That may not have been what I said, but if I’m honest, it is most definitely what I was asking for. And when I asked with those motives, it was like talking to brick wall.

Today as I began to pray, I changed the emphasis: “Jesus, show me how to rely on Your strength, to rest in Your righteousness. Make my heart sensitive to Your heart, and Your desires, align it with Your plan. Embolden it with Your courage and confidence that only Your Spirit can supply. Be my strength when I am weak.” The power I felt as I wrote these words down in a letter to God was amazing. There is power in prayer! Amazing, beautiful, awe-inspiring power! Like feeling the Holy Spirit smile as if to say, “Ahh, there you go. Now you’re getting it.” 

Really refreshing and encouraging feeling.

In other news, I’ve redesigned this blog! It was in need of a serious upgrade. If you’re an email subscriber and don’t visit the actual blog, please do come check it out! I intend to continue to personalize it as I have the time. Hoping to find a header image that better reflects the theme of my posts. Feel free to send me ideas if you come across something.

I’ve now been at the clinic for 9 weeks! I’m enjoying my work there, and eager to continue learning more. Also, my Dad and I have been attending a new church and we’re really loving it. (If I’ve mentioned this before here, just ignore me, I’m sick and on lots of cold meds.) So I’m very excited about that. :)

Beyond that, I’ve got nothing new to report!

I’m gunna try and get over this nasty cold now! :P Go do something fun outside in my place! :)

~TQG

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My weekend in a nutshell

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So my weekend started with walking the dam, where this amusing vandalism is. Best example of vandalism ever if you ask me.

Sad part of my hour long walk in direct sunlight is that I completely forgot to wear sunscreen….

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So yeah…. Ouch. It looks worse now than in this picture… Hoping that it’ll be healed enough by tomorrow that I won’t be totally miserable at work. We shall see.

I’m excited to say that I’m little by little gaining skills at work! And really loving it!

Here is a sheet drawn by my trainer to help me learn to check eye pressure!

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It’s very OCD and symmetrical. Which is pretty neat.

So that’s a summation of my weekend! Finished week 6 of my new job, I’m very pleased with my progress and the encouragement I’ve been getting from my superiors as well. ^_^

Anyway, hope your weekend has gone as well as mine has!

~TQG

Week 4 of Ophthalmic Bootcamp!

Well, I’ve survived a whole month at my new job! Loving all the new skills I’m gaining, the people I’m getting to meet, it’s still very intimidating at times, but totally worth it.

At this point I can do everything in the basic exam except checking eye pressure (tonometry), but I’m fairly certain I’ll be learning that in the coming week.

I’ve never been at a job for a month and still felt so very outside of my comfort zone. The (self inflicted) stress that it’s put on my body has definitely taken it’s tole already. My motivation for non-work related activities is suffering. This week, however, I managed to get revved up enough to work out Friday, Saturday, and Sunday! Which definitely helps relieve pent up stress and anxiety. I need to remember that next time I’m feeling mentally exhausted.

Beyond that, nothing terribly exciting is going on. I’ve been too tired to do much. It’s kind of ironic, 80 hours in a pay period, making decent money, but no time to spend any of it except on gas to get back to work! Haha. Oh, and paying for a new alternator for my needy little brat of a vehicle.

It’s been rainy all weekend, which always calms my mind. I went walking on our local dam, it’s about 2 miles each way, and the light drizzle was so refreshing. Going to miss that cool breeze when Summer shows up.

I found this picture on Old Fashion’s Facebook page and it made me happy, so I decided to stick it here so you too could enjoy it. ^_^

That’s it for now, TTFN!
~TQG
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The Full-time Life

Can’t believe three weeks have passed. Flew by in what felt like seconds. Today I received my first paycheck of my new job. Totally blown away, so excited to be getting decent pay. I’m going to be able to put so much away in savings and be more generous than I could before, and that makes me really happy.
I’m almost to the point now where I can do a basic eye exam on my own. Just the basics, vision check, pupil check, muscle balance and putting drops in people’s eyes. Can’t refract (determine  a glasses prescription) or check eye pressure  (to screen for glaucoma) yet, but I’m learning! Very pleased with myself. At the beginning of all this I was starting to wonder if I’d gotten in over my head a bit.
Less important news, I got a new phone. It’s one of those ridiculously huge, cannot fit in a normal sized pocket phones. Something I said I’d never do, but here I am typing on it and enjoying all the space my thumbs have to roam. Haha. It’s pretty cool though. I got it because my old phone was cracked and I was worried it would stop working soon, so I decided to replace before it died.
Anyway, I’m super exhausted today, 8 hours  spent learning, feeling constantly pushed beyond my limits and examining patients really wears me out. I haven’t exercised at all this week. I feel so lazy. Got to get back into the gym…
So, that’s my update! Nothing big, but hopefully some of you find my life at least somewhat interesting. I’m assuming you must or you wouldn’t follow my blog. ^_^

Until next time!
~TQG

Opthra–othp–oph-Ophthalmic?

I got a new job! I am now, officially,  an Ophthalmic Technician in training. Full-time employment! Finally, predictable hours and paychecks! (So many exclamation marks!) Plus, I get to wear scrubs. Which is basically like work pajamas.

So many awesome benefits to this job, such as having the same days off as my Dad, less of a commute, having opportunities to get certified in various parts of the field, etc. Really excited.

Oh, incase you, like me, had no idea what an Ophthalmic Technician was, they are the ones who do the first part of an eye exam, and they assist the Doctor. Having always been awestruck by the way eyes work, I’m really excited to learn.

Anyway, that’s the news of the week! YAY!

~TQG